I AM SO OBSESSESD WITH TRYING TO CONTACT MY DEAD FIANCE, AND I AM HAVING SO MANY THOUGHTS OF ENDING LIFE?
I FOUND HIM HOME IN BED NEW YEARS EVE MORNING AND I AM FEELING GUILTY I WOKE UP AND SAW HIM FACED DOWN IN BED SNORING (ASSUMING HE WAS SLEEP) AND I LEFT HIM IN THAT POSITION BECAUSE I WAS UPSET AT HIM FOR HIS CONSTANT PILL ADDICTION, BUT LEAVING HIM THERE WAS FATAL, I HURT BECAUSE I FEEL I COULD HAVE SAVED HIM, BUT IT WAS THE SAME CONSTANT SIGNS THAT I IGNORED BECAUSE I ASSUMED HE WAS OK. I AM SEEKING THERAPY IT DOES NOT WORK, AND I FIND MYSELF EVERYDAY TRYING TO HAVE SOME COMMUNICATION WITH HIM. I HAVE ALSO FOUND OUT SO MUCH ABOUT HIM AFTER HIS DEATH, BUT IT DOES NOT BOTHER ME I AM STILL VERY MUCH IN LOVE WITH HIM, AND I DON’T EVER THINK I WILL FALL OUT OF LOVE WITH HIM, ARE THERE ANY HELPFUL SUGGESTIONS. SORRY FOR THE CAPS IM NOT YELLING I JUST ALWAYS USE CAPS!!!!!!
shes not crazy, shes hurt. cut her some slack! anyway you just have to hold your head high and know that he would want better for you. hurting yourself wont bring him back and im sure that you have people that love you.